Last week was a really rough week resulting in a significant flair up of my depression. Washing my face or my hair, making the bed, getting dressed….these simple tasks were all a challenge let alone going to work and taking care of my family. Normally, the best medicine for my depression is a good run. This often helps me pull out of the cycle of despair and get back on my feet enough that I can move forward. Not so last week. My runs were making me more depressed as I slogged through one slow, hot mile after another.
My Saturday long run was looming ahead over my head like a dark cloud all week. It was to be my last long run before McKenzie River 50K in two weeks so I knew it was a critical run but had no idea how I was going to get through it. I texted a friend with my woes and she responded with the enlightened comment, “Frustration is wasted energy. Put that effort into your goals and positive thinking”. A life preserver as I drowned in my sorrows. Read More
In a little less than three weeks, I will be running the McKenzie River Trail Run, a 50K in Oregon along the McKenzie River. The McKenzie River is one of the most pristine rivers in Oregon. The upper reaches are designated as a Scenic and Wild River meaning there are no dams, no human manipulation and is a crystal clear, gorgeous salmon river.
Originating in the Cascade Mountain range, it is a tributary to the Willamette River, which snakes through the Willamette Valley from Eugene to Portland, creating the lush and fruitful croplands that grace Oregon. On the west side of the Cascades, the mountain is covered with Douglas Fir trees towering over those who travel beneath. The trail winds through this forest and we are among the lucky few who will get to traverse down this trail. Read More
My dearest Kenny,
Fifteen years ago, I stood in front of friends and family and committed myself to you for all time. I remember the day in technicolor. I woke that morning before everyone else and went for a short run. When I got home, I sat with Paddington for a while talking to him about our future. He purred contentedly while my heart beat with eager anticipation.
Between basic training and reporting to your duty station, our time together since we met had been intermittent at best and so much change was on the horizon. Not only were we about to marry, I was leaving Ohio, leaving family and friends, joining you in the Army life in Tennessee. Yet I didn’t feel any fear or anxiety, only happiness and delight. Read More
Starting your day with a run or other physical activity is one of the best ways to build positivity & self-confidence, reduce stress, and bring overall well-being into your life. When you begin your day with movement, it sparks creativity and inspires patience. Seriously, it is like a miracle drug paving the way for fulfillment.
Unfortunately, our psyche has a nasty habit of trying to interfere and the best laid plans get waylaid. Excuses build and getting up early becomes a challenge for many of us. Have you ever told yourself, “I really just need sleep because sleep is so important”. Sounds plausible right? And sleep is indeed important? But is it really a good excuse to skip a planned morning movement session? Better to rework your schedule to skip that late night Netflix binge and go to bed a little earlier and make waking up your priority. Read More
Two Fridays ago, hubby and I went north to Prescott, AZ. Our plan was to camp and then run on the Prescott Circle Trail Saturday morning. After my Whiskey Basin 57K on the same trail, I was eager to share it with Kenny. Beating the heat, enjoying good company, and getting into the woods were our main goals for the trip.
Unfortunately, my day got off to a rocky start. Fight with a friend, difficult staff problems, and last minute stressful packing all conspired to ruin our trip. But Kenny was supportive and great about getting the car packed, leaving me to fume. Then he listened to my woes as I unleashed all my frustration. What a man!! After letting off some steam, I was able to settle down and focus on the excitement of our adventure. Read More
For a month now, I have been running with a heart monitor and running in an aerobic zone also referred to as zone 2. If you are interested in learning more about my reasons, you can read this post. Although I knew it would require me to slow down, I have really been struggling with the snail’s pace. To be honest, it has been a blow to my ego and most days I have to remind myself that the benefits of building a solid foundation far outweigh the present emotional discomfort. Read More